deja vu

it's funny how on the days when you feel the most unattractive, someone notices you.

the whole way to work this morning, i felt like an ugly duckling - wishing i had worn a different outfit, hating the way my shirt was fitting, paranoid about the random cat hairs i kept finding clinging to my black skirt, scrutinizing my tired-looking eyes and my dull-looking skin, and kicking myself for forgetting my sunglasses at home, which i usually hide behind on days when i'm feeling blah.

and wouldn't you know it, a pretty cute guy justs starts a work assignment today at the company next door to mine. just my luck - a cute guy arrives on an ugly day for me.

but much to my surprise, as i'm on a call with a client, i happen to look up and he's in the hallway trying to get my attention. and when i give him a questioning look because i couldn't understand what he was mouthing, he says that he's going to stop by and talk to me later. tee hee.

about an hour or so later, he comes by and we chat for a good 15 mins. then he leaves to go back to work. and comes back again about 20 mins later to talk some more. he seems like a pretty nice guy.

the weirdest thing though is that he looks so much like the coward i dated almost two years ago. and even weirder than that, his mannerisms are so much like the coward. his facial expressions, the way he speaks, his gesturing...it's all too familiar. it's kinda eerie. i wonder if by some freak chance they could be related. i'd die. it'd be just my luck wouldn't it?

i guess if he and i start talking, i'll find out eventually. funny thing is, i wouldn't even be shocked or surprised if he said, "yeah, the coward is my brother." i'd laugh, but i wouldn't be surprised. my life kinda does things like that to me from time to time.

just to end on a high note, the temperature is in the upper 60s today! how awesome for january.