this thing

see the thing about me is, when i am upset with you, i can't talk to you.

it's not the mature or productive way to handle things, but it is almost physically impossible to speak when i'm upset. so i end up pulling away and subsequently pushing (you) away.

it's not a "punishment" for the other person, nor is it my goal to antagonize them to the point of breaking ties. but unfortunately, that does sometimes end up happening.

cuz see the thing about me is, when i care for you and you hurt me, i bleed. but i can't tell you how much you hurt me. cuz then you'll KNOW. and your knowing makes me feel exposed.