my prayer today

Lord, i thank You for choosing me to be your vessel, to wear Your name, to display Your light and Your love. i don't deserve to call You Daddy, i don't deserve the breath You breathe into me every day, i don't deserve for You to know my name, i don't deserve the love You pour over me every minute of my days.

so i thank You, Lord, for living in me, because You're perfect, You're holy. and on my own i'm nothing, i'm useless. but because You live in me, i am a part of You and You are a part of me. i carry You with me everywhere i go.

help me to be an instrument of Your peace, Your love, Your light, today. there are people in my life whose only exposure to You and the things of You are through me. it's a huge responsibility, and it scares me because i fail daily. i want them to know You, and if i'm the only one who can show them right now, i want to do just that. i want to be a channel for You. but i need Your help. sometimes i get so caught up in this life that i forget about You, i forget who You are, i forget who i am in You. i need You to fill the spaces in me that are empty and broken.

i can't breathe, i can't move, i can't do this life without You. i fail every day of my life because i'm small, weak, weary and flawed. but calling on Your name fills me with hope, power, and strength that i'd never in a thousand years have on my own. i'm calling on You now, Lord. i'm desperate for You.

let Your light shine through me today. fill my heart with joy, compassion, mercy and grace for even the most unlovable creature, for in the many times that i have been unlovable, You have shown me Your mercy, compassion and grace. You have lifted me up from the darkest of places. today, let me be that source of love and uplifting for someone else. send me the broken, the abandoned, the unloved, the forgotten, the hurting, the burdened. fill my arms with room to receive those who just need to be embraced. let me wipe away a tear, kiss the forehead of someone who needs to smile, hold the hand of someone who feels alone and afraid.

Lord, You have been all these things for me. let me be that for someone else.

so many days i feel broken, abandoned, unloved, forgotten, hurt and burdened. and You send angels to lift me back up again. You hold me as i sleep. You whisper to me in my dreams.

i want to be for them what You have been for me.

i don't know what this day will bring me, and i admit that i'm afraid. but i'm holding Your hand, Father. i'm gripping it tightly, holding on for life, letting the feel of Your powerful fingers entwined with mine be my comfort, my solace, my strength. i love You more than i could ever show You.

in the name of Your beautiful Son Jesus, my Lord, my Savior i pray,

Amen.