stupid cops...

i got a freakin speeding ticket...on my way to church last sunday!

the ticket is $170!!!!!!!!!!!!!! viva la raza!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my life sucks so much sometimes...

what infuriates me is that so many other people were going the same speed as me, or faster, yet I'M the one who got pulled over. how fair is that?? and i SAW the cop chillin in the little clearing on the side of the parkway, so i slowed down way before i got to him. but SOMEHOW his stupid radar thingy picked me up. i think it's a conspiracy if you ask me. just a conspiracy to try to get more money out of us nice, tax-paying citizens. and the cop was a brotha!! you'd THINK he'd have some mercy on a sista, getting pulled over for the first time ever, just trying to make it to church on time. i even had my Bible on the seat next to me and everything. but clearly he didn't care about my sista-hood or my Bible...

i wasn't even going that fast... he CLAIMS i was doing 80 mph (and the speed limit was 55)....which ok, i'll admit looks kinda bad. however, i'm not even sure i was really doing 80 - i really was not paying attention. so he could've made that up. plus, everyone drives faster than 55 on the parkway! the weather was clear, it wasn't raining, the traffic wasn't really heavy, so driving above 55 is not really considered dangerous, albeit still illegal (technically), unless the road conditions or traffic conditions are unfavorable. i learned that, i'm not just making that up.

this ticket has been burning a whole in my bag for a week now. i've tried to put it off, but now i'm faced with the decision of whether or not to pay it and accept my fate, or fight it in court.

the thought of going to court, all alone, having no idea what to say in my defense, is scary as hell...but i guess it's worth a shot. i'll pray that the cop doesn't show up or that they will have pity on me. if i don't go and just punk out and pay it, i'll always wonder if i could have gotten off. paying the stupid $170 is bad enough, but if i'm convicted of a moving violation in court or if i pay the ticket outright, my insurance may go up. and it's already way too expensive. if it gets any higher, i don't know if i'll be able to afford it. then what will i do??

i can't write about this anymore. it's giving me a headache and i feel the tears coming...