today

today......

today i know what it means to call Him a true and living God.
today i have a blinding headache for the second day in a row.
today i didn't cry.
today i am redeeming a coupon for a free pizza that i got at the Wizards (basketball) game last night.
today i am reminding myself that Jesus beckoned the heavy-laden to come to Him, and He will give us rest (Matthew 11:28)
today i am coming to Him.
today i ate some potatoes at lunch that made me dance in my chair.
today i want to cry.
today i feel so lonely.
today i'm remembering feeling a flutter in my tummy last night that i know was my baby (who was up way past his/her bedtime).
today i long to hold this little one in my arms.
today i wonder if this hole in my heart will ever go away.
today i want a nice, cold glass of grape soda.
today i want to retire from work forever.
today i feel forgotten.
today i can't wait to go home and cry with, sing to, praise and worship God.
today i am wanting a vacation.
today i am planning a vacation.
today i have enjoyed the peace that is fighting with my unrest.
today i am still angry.
today i am blessed to know that God is still with me.
today i heard God's voice.
today i felt God's presence.

today, despite the heaviness in my heart,

i.
am.
alive.