thank You

i love my family. i don't always give them the credit they deserve, nor do i always appreciate their goodness. but i am seeing, hearing and feeling their love right now. their support, their wisdom, their lovingkindness, their encouragement, unconditional love and Word from God...i am bathing in it.

i couldn't ask for a better family if i tried. i'm amazed at their hearts right now. i'm amazed at their embrace. i'm amazed at their love. i don't deserve them. i'm so grateful that God has blessed me with each and every one of them. with all the drama, ups and downs, conflicts and issues we've had as a family unit, i still wouldn't trade any of them. they, with each of their gifts, were perfectly placed in my life. they have unselfishly shown their concern, support, attention and care. they listen to me complain, cry, pour out my fears and concerns and their focus is all over me right now. i don't deserve that kind of attention and dedication but i'm so grateful for it.

so this is what unconditional love really is all about...i've never fully experienced that from anyone but God. they love me like no one else has or could (besides my heavenly Father). they are here for me in ways no one else is. though they all have their goings-on right now, and with all of the issues in their hearts, they are still pouring into me right now. i can't describe how that feels. i can only pray that i am being HALF as attentive, affectionate and supportive of them and their needs. i'm learning what really matters. God is going to use every single thing for good. He's already bonding me to my family in ways that i haven't ever experienced in my life. it's scary, these changes. but it's God working. this is all a part of His glorious design. His will for my life is perfect, in spite of my imperfections. though i may divert from the path for a moment, His Word and His will goes forth.

i have never been so in love.

thank You, Father. You see beyond my faults, and You meet my needs.
thank You. You are worthy of all my praise. though dark days will come and more tears will fall, You are showing me every day that You're by my side. I need You now more than i ever have before. You're building my strength and faith in You, preparing me for what is to come.

thank You for remembering me.