smiling through bits of blues

kinda bummed. i don't like confronting things. i'm queen of running. well, maybe princess.

but i've got some great texts to reread to chase away the blues!! le sigh. with all the talk of politics and economics flooding the airwaves and tongues of most people these days, i LOVE a man who can text to me about CSI Miami. *purr* it's like talking dirty to me in a very clean way. the simple things will win me over every time.

and he told me my "flattery" was getting me places. that almost sent me places. who knew i was being flattering? my "flattery" was really just my honesty, but i love making him blush (as he put it). i'm grateful that we seem to be communicating more of late.

be careful, Dragonfly. for once in my life, i will be NOT like myself and not read anything into it. let's just chill and let it ride.

so last night my devotions were centered around surrender. surrender is hard for me. i tend to surrender in fractions, not as a whole. God wants all of me, not sections of me. He is really, really dealing with on my selfishness with my time. i'm not only selfish and controlling with my time when it comes to people in my life, but i'm that way with God too! He wants more than what i give Him. and He wants it consistently, not just in spurts.

people may think surrender is a show of weakness. but it really takes strength and power to surrender.

think about it.