grow up

why are adults such infants sometimes?

sometimes i wonder how people made it as far as they have in life with such toxic levels of immaturity and child-like mentality.

i guess this is reason number 12,587, 459 why i need to pray. i need way more tolerance for foolishness and doers of foolishness than i presently have.

sometimes i just want to grab people by the face and yell, "Waaah Waaah! shut up."

yeah, i need Jesus.

and you know what else...sometimes i'd just really rather not hang out with other church folk. at least the heathens of the world know how to keep it real.

church folk have a sickening way of trying to mask their pain with Christian-isms. if something is bothering you, or you're going through something negative - it's really ok to feel it and to say it! (touching on that Batman Christian post from awhile back).

i can't tell you how much i want to slap people with a Bible who are clearly broken inside but will say something dumb like "i'm just going to speak positively, i won't complain, His grace is sufficient."

yeah the Lord's grace IS sufficient, and yeah we are not to wallow in pity and embrace defeat because we're victors in Christ. but it's really ok to talk about your troubles sometimes. it's really ok to speak about your storms sometimes. it's really ok to say, "you know what, Dragonfly? life sucks right about now. thanks for asking" instead of dying on the inside and quoting some Scripture to me.

i love the Lord and trust in His will. but ask Him - there are many days where i've said to God Himself "Father? my life bites right now. and i'm really not feeling it... what are You doing up there?" and that's ok to do.

you're not doing anyone a service by pretending your walk with Christ means you have to wear a perpetual Jesus-loves-me-smile. even Jesus Himself cried. but i guess the Super Saved can't lower themselves to such levels of disgusting humanity. as if.

i'm glad i'm saved but am still human. i hope my relationship with Christ won't eventually turn me into a Saved Cyborg like some of these robots i know.

goodness...i'm done venting. i just had to get some things out.

thanks...you've been a beautiful audience.