satan, why dost thou tempt me!??????!?!?!?!?!?!?!

i'm telling you,

people LOVE to test my Christianhood.

this guy at my job...

so HELP.

ME.

FATHER!!!!!!!!!!!

it is only, ONLY the Holy Spirit inside of me and my accountability to God that keep me from losing my cool and telling him where he can shove his nasty little attitude, and like it.

He better be glad i've been redeemed and that taped to my desk pad is the reminder to

"Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you and persecute you; that ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaven. For He maketh His sun to rise on the evil and on the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust." (Matthew 5:44-45)

now i gotta repent because he has me thinking all the things i want to say, but can't/shouldn't. i must be obedient and kill the flesh that is bubbling over with angst.



*Father, please forgive me for the unholy thoughts burning a hole in my mind. and help me to instead pray for my enemies and have compassion on bitter old souls, knowing that You love even them, and can change their hearts. help me to love the unlovable, because i'm failing miserably.


RAAAAAH!!!


and Amen.