"And He said, "Lay not thine hand upon the lad, neither do thou any thing unto him; for now I know that thou fearest God, seeing thou hast not withheld thy son, thine only son, from Me."
And Abraham lifted up his eyes and looked; and behold, behind him a ram caught in a thicket by his horns. And Abraham went and took the ram, and offered him up for a burnt offering in the stead of his son.
And Abraham called the name of that place Jehovahjireh [that is, The LORD will provide]; as it is said to this day, "In the mount of the LORD it shall be seen."
(Genesis 22:12-14)
i won't lie and say that i'm not bummed out because i am. i just got the mass email from our CEO that due to budget cutbacks, they will not be giving out annual merit raises this year.
now, for the big timers who already make $200,000 a year, i'm sure they don't care much. for us little people who barely scrape by with the scraps we're given, that annual raise is a blessing.
what perfect timing, seeing as how i'm having a baby and all. i needed a raise before i got pregnant. now that a baby is on the way, "need" isn't even the word to describe what i feel right now.
nevertheless, the Lord will provide. He has never left me before and He ain't about to start now. perhaps He is allowing this to test my faith in Him and His provisions, and to show me that this job and salary are only resources. HE is my SOURCE and all comes from Him.
so with or without a raise, the Lord will provide. i know He will. He makes a way when there IS no other way but through Him. that's how He gets glory. i'm holding on to faith that He'll show me just how much He can and does provide to those who place their trust in Him. even when other wells run dry, His bounty is plentiful.
and i may not be getting a raise, but i do still have a job. i could have lost my job like countless other folks all across this nation and world.
bless the Lord, Oh my soul. and all that is within me, bless His holy name.
is it ok that i'm still kinda bummed though?