cooties

i'm home sick from work today.

blech.

but despite the runny and stuffy nose, sore glands, sneezing, slight fever and fatigue, i'm so glad to be home with my little one today. life has been so hectic these last couple of weeks. work all day, physical therapy twice a week in the evenings, running around here and there, shopping for a new car, friends having wedding showers and shopping for presents and phone calls with this person and that person and scheduling meetings and appointments. i feel like i've barely spent a few hours alone with my own child in days. even the weekends have had me pulled in all directions and i seem to never leave my car...

so though being sick sucks, i'm grateful for the down time. if that's what it takes to force me to stay home and spend quality time with myself and my daughter, so be it.

i just hope the immunities she gets from my milk will be enough to keep her healthy and not get sick from me.

it's no one's fault but my own that i got sick. all this busyness has caused me to lapse on taking care of myself. i've been going to bed after 1am and waking up at 6am. i've been so tired that i've barely been able to keep my eyes open at work, i've been oversleeping every morning because i can't get out of bed.

i've been skipping meals because i'm too busy to eat. i haven't been taking my prenatal vitamins (i still take those since i'm breastfeeding) because i need to take them with meals (preferably dinner) or they make me nauseous and/or vomit. and since i've barely been eating full meals, i haven't been taking the vitamins.

my immune system probably divorced me from all the neglect. so now i'm fighting this yucky cold as a result.

but as i type this post and watch my little muffin kick around on the bed beside me, cooing and babbling and clutching her Glowworm that i have to squeeze every few minutes to get it to play a song and make its face glow, i feel grateful for this day i get to spend with her.

i'd gladly take on a nasty bug just so that i can hear her little giggles all day long.

and at least now i have some free time to finish my taxes too.