randomication

yeah yeah, so i know this post is going to have a lot of random info so please don't bother pointing that out. k? k...:-) after all, that's the point of my random posts! so enjoy my mess of thoughts.

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i'm learning to crochet! or rather, i'm teaching myself to crochet. i bought a kit that came with an instructional and supplies. it's so exciting to learn!! my mommy had taught me when i was a little girl but that information has long been buried somewhere in the crevices of my disturbed mind. so i'm happy to be picking this up again. even the test samples i'm making while i perfect my skills are so beautiful to me. it was hard catching on at first, and my self-esteem plummeted about 170 points. even 10 year olds know how to crochet so why was it so hard for me?? and it didn't help that the whack diagrams they have in the book look NOTHING like my fingers look when i'm doing the different stiches. but practice (and re-reading the same instructions over and over and over slooooooowly) made perfect, and now i've got quite a rhythm going! i can't wait to make...well, stuff that i'm not telling :-)

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the weather this weekend is going to be ACES - in the 70s. whoo-hoo!!! that blizzard we had earlier this week was NOT the cool thing to do (although it did give me a free snow day from work so i was uber grateful). but i'm ready for the snow to disappear. in honor of the coming warmth, i am making my lazy bee-hind get up and go walking and/or jogging. i've got to get active again, especially now that my energy is up way more than it has been in the last several weeks. i'm super excited that spring is coming, and i can't believe it's March already! where is my time going?

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my mother amazes me. i can't believe how awesome she's being to me. i wish i could elaborate but i can't. it'll make more sense later, i promise. perhaps.

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please come tie me to a chair and make me finish my taxes. every year i start them early, and every year, due to disgusting procrastination and rebellion, i'm just finishing them up the week of april 15th (or the night before...who am i kidding?). what is wrong with me? i started my taxes over a month ago. why are they not done yet? why? ugh.

well see what happens is, in my defense, i'll start them and everything is smooth sailing. and then i'll discover that i need my interest earnings statement from my bank that i know i have somewhere at home but that is buried in a sea of bills and paperwork somewhere. or i'll discover that i need my student loan interest statement that is lost somewhere in the same sea that is my apartment. who feels like dealing with that? pssssh. so then, i keep putting it off because i'm too lazy to look for the appropriate documents. and, viola! months have gone by and i'm still not finished. wasn't that explanation supposed to be "in my defense"? so how come it only defended the fact that i'm super disorganized and need some mental evaluation....

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i am craaaaaaaaaaving pasta like you wouldn't believe. i've eaten spaghetti almost every night for the past week, and i'm still not tired of it. right now, i'd kill for some cold pasta salad with italian dressing, cukes, tomatoes, carrots, cilantro and deliciousness....hmmm...

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you guys ever eaten figs? what are they like? yum or yuck? my doc recommended them to me. if they're anything like dates, i think i'll pass. i tried to be cute and ate a date (the fruit, not some guy, LOL) and i wanted to vomit. i hope figs aren't like those...


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you know why i'm not on facebook? several reasons:

1) the whole concept annoys me. it's all so....voyeuristic. i certainly don't knock all the trillions of facebook users in the world, but for me, i feel like it's just a way for people to be nosy and see what i'm doing, and vice versa. people that never even speak to me or bother to keep in touch want to see if i'm married, where i'm living, what i'm doing, who my friends are? really? for what?

2) aside from that, it gives me another way to compare myself and my life to that of everyone else's and thus feed my insecurites. i found myself doing that when i was on myspace way back when. i'd obsessively look at profiles of ex-classmates and get so angry that so-and-so, who wasn't even NICE in school, is all happily married for 8 years and has 3 kids. i know, i'm terrible, but don't pretend like you've never thought that. you see some girl who was just mean and nasty in high school and you think, "who in his right mind married YOU?...and I'M single??" go on...admit it...i won't tell. or so-and-so is living in hawaii having the time of his life and i'm stuck in job i can't stand bored out of my mind. i know that's MY issue and no one else's - that thing of always thinking everyone else's life is better than mine - but that's just another reason why i need to stay off of facebook. i don't need to exacerbate that problem that i have (and yes, i do know it's a problem).

3) i get tired of all the changing fads and being expected to keep up with them. i'm rebellious like that. it just gets annoying. i did the myspace thing and it got old for me real fast so i deleted my account. then everyone who swore i needed to get on myspace in the first place then swore i needed to get on facebook. before long all the facebook lovers will move on to some other trend. it's like Apple and Blackberry and their stupid phones (do i sound bitter)? every other week they come out with some new version and people who just got the new one will run out and spend $400 to get the newest new one...

yeah...not so much. you guys can keep it all. if people need to reach me, they will surely find a way. write me a letter - still like getting mail just as much as i did when i was a child :-)

4) lastly, i like to remain somewhat of a mystery :-) i don't need everyone in the world knowing exactly what i'm doing, when i'm doing it and who i'm doing it with. i don't really see the need in telling everyone that "Dragonfly is cooking dinner, then is going to read a book, and then is going to bed by 11pm" ....who cares?? it's not that serious.

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where'd we land on that pasta salad? who's making some and inviting me over?