monday: the soup

creme brulé flavored coffee sounds waaay better than it tastes. that's what i get for trying to be fancy. should have stuck to my regular colombian dark roast and called it a morning.

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the weekend was...interesting. let's just leave it at that. *sigh*

and why is the first thing out of people's mouths in the office on monday, "so how was your weekend? what'd you do??" WHY?? mind your business.

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i made some banging vegan chocolate chip cookies last night. it comes in a dry mix to which you just add oil and water. but this time, i used almond milk instead of water. they came out soooo soft and fluffy. you should come get some! hurry before i punish them all.

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speaking of last night, you want to know how paranoid of germs i am? i was in church at our Communion service and homegirl sitting next to me was all nose-blowy and sneezy the entire time. instead of really concentrating on worshiping the Christ who shed His body and blood for me, i was seriously imagining all her microscopic snot molecules invading my nose. i promise you, i even started to feel like my throat was hurting. LOL. i'm such a hypochondriac. it totally killed a good portion of my worship experience though. i'm so glad my pastor didn't have us join hands in prayer because sista to my left would have been short. sorry Jesus, i know that's not how i should be thinking in your house, but it was gross.

i did feel bad for her though, she seemed miserable. i don't know why she didn't just stay home. i mean, the Lord understands if you're sick and cant come to church...

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so, i watched the movie "Cover" on saturday. have you seen it?? click the link and read the synopsis. it was a pretty well-written movie and i enjoyed that there was no profanity or anything, very Christian-based. just to give a brief rundown, the main characters are a married couple who begin to have marital troubles. the wife is an avid church goer, the husband not-so-much. she suspects he's having an affair and turns out he is...with a man.

maaaaan, that whole "DL" thing scares me to death. if ever saw my husband in the shower with another man, i...maaan...i'd... may the Lord be with both of us. now, i'm not an advocate of divorce. the Bible says that God hates divorce, and i really do believe that we are called to do everything in our power to reconcile our marriages. but let me see my husband soaping some dude down in the shower in a hotel room. there's no need to even call the pastor for marriage counseling. we are d-o-n-e. no amount of prayer would ever get that image out of my head. only the Holy Spirit Himself would be able to give me the power to not start spraying bullets all over that hotel room. i'm really not prone to violence, but i think part of me would want to shoot first, repent later.

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i have a "feeling" some eyes are reading my blog regularly. i wish they would just come out of lurker-ville and make their presence known once in awhile. *waving* hi there. i see you!! :-D how would you guys will feel about me making the blog 'invitation only' ? i'd need to get your emails though so that i can make you readers. for real, tell me how that sounds?

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i've recognized something about myself: i can be rather callous. as sensitive as i am, you'd think i'd be more understanding of other people's over-sensitivities. but i'm not. i just get annoyed. do you have a flaw that you fully recognize as a flaw, but when confronted with that same flaw in others, you feel intolerant and annoyed? what's up with that?

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if a lukewarm friend did something to offend you but you really aren't supposed to know what they did to offend you because you found out on the DL, but nevertheless you're offended, would you speak? or would you let it go?

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speaking of amigos, i'm pleased to announce that God is opening doors and blossoming some new friendships in my life. i thank Him because the old ones seem to be ...meh. maybe it's me, maybe it's them. maybe i don't care. i honestly have lost my will to fight for anything. is that a bad thing? how do you know when something is worth fighting to save? tell me, are there people in your life you really would fight to keep around? do you have friendships that are not the same anymore? if so, do you feel they are worth saving or could you let them go? or, as with many things in life, do you feel they had a purpose but now their season is over? i'm curious to know what you all think!

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i had the weirdest dream last night that i was at a farmer's market buying cabbage. but the cabbages were really really small, like the size of a pea. and they were growing in a pot, attached to the ends of stems, like flowers. what?