reflections of the day (thus far)

* i hate falling "in like." i pray God plops my future husband down in front of me and says, "Here. Marry him." that way we can skip the dating, courting, nervousness, agony, and butterflies that come along with getting to know someone new. *sigh*

* this world is gi-normous. i am one tiny fleck in it. but i was created with purpose, though that purpose may go unseen to the masses.

* i am flying with broken wings, but my precious Lord Jesus provides what i lack.

* i say "whatever" (usually shortened to "whatev") way too much, in speech and in casual writing/texting/emailing

* i like the feeling of hunger - that emptiness is a little addictive

* i like being sore the day after a good workout

* i crave human touch daily, and i often touch people when i talk to them. i'm very sensual (not in a sexual way) - i love the feel of a human hand, arm, cheek. and i hug and kiss everyone. i hope people don't think i'm being flirty. one of my favorite clients came in today and i wanted to hug him so badly, just because. but i felt it would have been unprofessional.

* people put a LOT of faith and trust in me - in my personal life and at work. i'm not qualified for that honor, but i'm honored, really honored that anyone would think that highly of me. i'm really not worthy.

* God is so patient with me. every time i remember how little i do for Him but how great His love is for me, it makes me more in love with Him.

* my biggest fear is being hurt. i'm so afraid of people. i am always, always running.

* signs of motherhood are all around me and i've never before felt the urge for children as much as i do now. praise God for whatever is to come. i trust that He's preparing me.

* i don't accept compliments well - i often feel they are undeserved.

* the minute you start talking to/half-way dating someone, courters come out the woodwork. it's like you're wearing a sign all of a sudden. what's that all about?

* i am very disorganized. my desk is atrocious. yet my home is very well-organized. go fig.

* i am elated when people tell me they are thinking of/thought of me. makes me feel special. (thanks, A - and yes thoughts of someone rank a close second to sending up prayers) :-)